Stanley's silent a second. Maybe a minute. Time's funny just now, so he ain't sure. He's looking at Ford, staring at him. He'd looked away when Ford - when Ford's voice - asked him why would anything ever go his way, because hearing that in Ford's voice, it was- but then Stan looked at Ford and didn't stop, he looked with all the emotion gone out of his face, just looking. Listening.
So he stares at his brother - at his brother's face - for a minute, or for a couple seconds. He blinks, takes a slow breath through his nose, leans back a little bit and turns over the fist of the hand that's holding that pill and he looks at his fingers, silently. Some kinda' expression might leak back onto his face eventually, but for now all he looks is thoughtful.
"I take back what I said about your sales pitch," he says finally, honestly, and depending on how tangled up the hand holding the pill is with Ford's flock of fingers, Stan's going to open up his fist and let his one way out of all this bullshit just sit there out in the open, at the mercy of god and everybody.
Or, you know, at the mercy of Ford. Which is worse.
There's no way things can go from here that ain't worse. Either the high fades off and so does the absolute worst trip of Stan's life and that's that, you know, finito, or the high fades off and his brother is here. Either his brother is gone and, to the surprise of no one, gives not one single solitary shit about any of this, or Mr. Perfect is here and stays here and he knows. He sees.
Either Ford never sees him again or Ford sees him like he was never supposed to, Ford sees him like this.
Like he really is. Stan can think that now, he can admit the truth to himself right now as long as he never thinks too hard about it again. Either he's lost Ford again, and that would be bad enough, but if he doesn't then Ford sees the guy his brother really is.
There is no way giving up this pill is going to end well. Not for the guy who, once upon a time, went by the name Stanley. But everyone has their price, and he knows his when he hears it.
"This is what you wanted, right?" His voice isn't empty but it isn't full of anything in particular, either. There's no reason to pour it full of anything. The deal's gone down, the rest of it's just details.
"Oh yeah, and that milk of yours. Wanted me to drink that too." He stretches out his fingers and then curls them in a few times, beckoning the milk closer. "Come on. Gimme. Gotta' get my calcium, or some shit."
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So he stares at his brother - at his brother's face - for a minute, or for a couple seconds. He blinks, takes a slow breath through his nose, leans back a little bit and turns over the fist of the hand that's holding that pill and he looks at his fingers, silently. Some kinda' expression might leak back onto his face eventually, but for now all he looks is thoughtful.
"I take back what I said about your sales pitch," he says finally, honestly, and depending on how tangled up the hand holding the pill is with Ford's flock of fingers, Stan's going to open up his fist and let his one way out of all this bullshit just sit there out in the open, at the mercy of god and everybody.
Or, you know, at the mercy of Ford. Which is worse.
There's no way things can go from here that ain't worse. Either the high fades off and so does the absolute worst trip of Stan's life and that's that, you know, finito, or the high fades off and his brother is here. Either his brother is gone and, to the surprise of no one, gives not one single solitary shit about any of this, or Mr. Perfect is here and stays here and he knows. He sees.
Either Ford never sees him again or Ford sees him like he was never supposed to, Ford sees him like this.
Like he really is. Stan can think that now, he can admit the truth to himself right now as long as he never thinks too hard about it again. Either he's lost Ford again, and that would be bad enough, but if he doesn't then Ford sees the guy his brother really is.
There is no way giving up this pill is going to end well. Not for the guy who, once upon a time, went by the name Stanley. But everyone has their price, and he knows his when he hears it.
"This is what you wanted, right?" His voice isn't empty but it isn't full of anything in particular, either. There's no reason to pour it full of anything. The deal's gone down, the rest of it's just details.
"Oh yeah, and that milk of yours. Wanted me to drink that too." He stretches out his fingers and then curls them in a few times, beckoning the milk closer. "Come on. Gimme. Gotta' get my calcium, or some shit."